A February Goal That I Am Hesitant To Write Down....

Since February is right around the corner, I have been writing down some of my goals for the month. But there is one that I am hesitant to write down because my fear there is no way that I would do it.

Now that I am a working mom, I have to get up so early to feed Brayson and get ready for work. And if you know me, I am not a morning person. I like to stay in bed until I have to get up. There are two things that have been hard for me to do on a consistent basis since I had Brayson: spending time with the Lord and working out. I love to do both but to get up earlier than I have to is REALLY hard! And there is no way I can do it after work anymore. There just isn't the time.

So the goal that I am so hesitant to write down is to get up at 4:00 am (yes you read that right) and work out and spend time with the Lord before I wake up Brayson. Ugh...I already get up at 4:50. So what is 50 minutes??? Everything to a person who loves to stay in bed until she has to get up.

But Feb is only 28 days and this season in my life is temporary... So we will see how this goes. Maybe confessing on my blog will get me in gear.

So here is a cute picture of my boy:

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"When God gives you a vision and darkness follows, wait. God will bring the vision He has given you to reality in your life if you wait on His timing."

-Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest, Jan.19th

It has been a long time...

It has been a long time since I have really posted on my blog. A lot has happened in the past year. A year ago at this time I got pregnant and did not even know it until March. Brayson was born on Oct. 1st. He was 2 weeks early. Which I am glad because it gave me a full 3 months maternity leave with him.

I went through a lot of struggles about what God was doing in my life during and after my pregnancy last year. I was supposed to start Dallas Theological Seminary in May. I swore this was what the Lord was leading me to do. Then I found out I was pregnant and that changed everything.

God has done such a big work in me since then. I am so glad Brayson is here. I love him so much. He is at this very cute stage where he is talking, smiling, and laughing. It brings such joy to my heart when he smiles at me. I think I have the cutest boy ever! Of course, I am not biased. ;)

So which brings me to my word for the year. Last year it was follow - little did I know how God would use that! This year I feel the Lord is leading me to ENJOY! Last year was a hard year for me and I did not enjoy a lot of it. It was hard and frustrating. But I feel it is time to put that behind me and choose joy and enjoy the life that the Lord has given me.

So how is that working right now - I want to enjoy my first year with Brayson. Enjoy our first year as a family. He is only this age once and I don't want to wish my time away. Who knows if I will ever have another little one so this may be my only chance. I don't want to look back and regret not enjoying these moments as a new family.

I want to enjoy my relationship with the Lord.

I want to enjoy who God has made me to be.

I want to enjoy this phase of my life.

So we will see what God does this year!